I have been thinking about this moment for a long time. My little ones turned five. Not only are they growing up, but they are moving on. The first week of Kindergarten. I know, a small step. A little growth. It is a good beginning. They are excited, and so am I, but I realized with this beginning, there is also an ending.
Have you noticed that beginnings and endings come together? It appears to be a bittersweet way that we get to grow.
I still remember the day that my little ones were born. I had no idea what I was in for. I had no idea how fast they would grow.
It’s funny how when I saw them walk away for the first time, two pieces of my heart suddenly were walking outside of my body. Those little pieces broke off of my heart, boarded the bus, and drove away with those two little girls.
I wouldn’t have my heart in any other place.
I usually am full of words, but as I think about my little ones, the words get stuck and the feelings just come. Here are a few pictures that express some of the feelings of my heart:
I remember the first cry, in the hospital and the huge mass of dark hair and the little skiff of silver hair. Two babies. Perfect. Beautiful.
I remember the worry I had about breastfeeding.
I remember when my niece showed up and I worried that there was something wrong with her because she was so “huge” compared to my little ones.
I remember when my husband thought they started sleeping through the night really early, but it was 10 months! Guess who was sleeping through the night?
I remember they were always wanting to be by one another.
I remember the sweet smell.
And the tiny fingers.
I remember the first step.
The first words.
And I remember when they finally started to say “I love you, mama.”
And, I will always remember how they held hands as they walked down our street on the way to school. They were so excited and had no idea how mom’s heart was stretching a little that day.
So, in honor of their first week of school, I have a few things I would like them to know. I hope they are things they never forget:
To my sweet daughters as your start kindergarten:
You are ready. You’ve got this.
You are strong, beautiful, special, kind, and smart.
Be yourselves. That is the best you that you can be. Don’t change for your teacher, for your friends, for a boy, or for me.
You will scrape your knee, have bad days, miss class parties, and have your feelings hurt.
And, it will be o.k.
And you will learn and grow.
Beauty is not about what you wear, it is about who you are.
Play. Have fun. Breathe deeply of the freedom of childhood.
Always remember that no matter where you go, you are loved. You are wanted.
Reach out to someone who is alone. They need a friend and you are a good one.
A hug usually makes you feel better, and mom gives great hugs.
And, remember, no matter where you go, mom loves you.
More than you know…
Several of the above pictures were taken by my sweet sis-in-law. Thank you, Mar.
How was your first week of school? What do you remember most about your babies